You need more help than Fluther can give. Perhaps a therapist, perhaps legal intervention. Also, perhaps moving out – you’re 21 and (I assume) a legal adult wherever you live. Please find help, because you’re in a horrible situation that you do not deserve. You can get out. There is hope. Remember – you are not a minor. You do not have to take this. Doctors can help with the depression, police can help you with assault charges if you are being physically hurt. Wrench control, but don’t “forget” about the consequences – it’s likelier that they will be good consequences, and all this will someday be a poor memory. And 21 isn’t old. :) I married at 35. You’ll find someone nice. No need to rush. ;)