I don’t know that Chaos is dead, and I’ve found a lot of comfort in thinking that he’s with someone who loves him. My mom got me a new kitten for *********, and I love him so much already. I wouldn’t say that it was anything like being the same thing losing my cat, than losing my friend. Losing Chaos has been a small amount of constant sadness. When I lost Asher the pain comes in big waves. When I think I’m okay, I realize that I’m not.