answer:There is a higher self that is trying to tell you something. It is warning you that you have these dangerous impulses—impulses that you love. A sensible side of you wants you to get the hell out of whatever those dangerous impulses are. The sensible side used to go along with the dangerous side. You run, and you are running from something serious—that is, metaphorically, you must be doing something that is dangerous. It might be some kind of drugs or alcohol abuse? Most likely alcohol if it is a substance. But it could be anything that is a harmful activity or self-destructive activity—dropping out of school, cutting, you name it. Now it seems that you’ve had some success stopping whatever it is you are doing that is bad for you, but it keeps on trying to seduce you again. It is something that must make you feel very good, because you keep on being tempted back to it. The part of you that is heroic and really cares for you has pushed you to safety, for the moment. It has gone back to continue to fight for you. Does this make any sense in your real life?