Hm, I would definitely give up on the fantasy muse. Either ask her out or drop it. However I would say keep dreaming and writing! I used to have this fantasy as a older teen that Hillcrest in San Diego was as close to an indie flick as it got. The older I got, the more I went, Hilcrest lots its magic. I learned that they are just businesses survived off loans and just a regular community with gay people in it. I loved what it served for me as a teen though, it helped me learn that I didn’t have to stay in the ghetto and I could branch out and escape my town. I love Hillcrest, I’m just not as frequent, I think I shall live there one day though.