Congratulations! I have not given birth, but there is a saying about labor and delivery, “the first time there is the fear of the unknown, the second time the fear of the known.” So, my answer is just to comment that you sound like every other friend of mine who has had more than one, very normal. I hope your second one is a breeze, and I hope answers here help you feel better. Maybe look into different options for birthing if you didn’t the first time. Take the drugs if you didn’t, learn hypnosis, or use a midwife instead, etc.