answer:You don’t feel better because he has come back into your life and is trying to reconnect. And you have tried to “stay friends”, but you need to disengage. Quit responding to texts, don’t answer when he calls, and tell him to quit bugging you. You need to stay apart from him. And meanwhile you are not committed to exploring a new relationship. So somewhere in the back of your mind is the desire to get back together with your ex, all the while knowing he is embroiled with his current wife. You are in a mess in which you have helped create. You need to cut off the contact or else accept that you will have drama and turmoil for a long time. Your choice, choose which you want.