I don’t think there’s a timetable for these things. There are, of course, the seven stages of grief, and most people find that to be a decent guide. On the other hand, it’s not like there’s an orderly procession, first step one, then step two, etc. – they progress, and you can be fine one day, and the next day it’s like you’re back at square one. People heal in their own time. If this happened to you, my heart goes out to you. It may help to reach out to others who are also grieving, to support each other and know that you are not alone. There are also support groups, but I don’t know how to find them in your local area. If you have a spiritual community, they may know, or even sponsor some themselves. On the whole, though, each person’s grief is unique. You can’t force healing.