I felt very similar after having my daughter. My biggest anxiety-inducer was riding in the car (especially on the interstate) even if I was driving. I would have panic attacks. No horror movies, no movies, books or news stories about the awful things that happen to children. It may not have been about my child directly, but I was horrified by the thoughts of what children really do go through in this world. Having a child of my own made it more real, more tragic. I could now put myself in the place of the parents and feel the enormity of their grief. In other ways, though, and overall, it has made me much stronger. I am someone’s mom. I teach her, guide her, protect her and love her. It is the greatest responsibility I have ever had and I have stepped up. I now know that I can do this. I was once terrified of having kids.