answer:It will if you let it. You can wake up every day thinking, “Ugh. Shit. I have to go to class again,” and it will be hell for as long as you put up with it and graduate, or quit, whichever comes first. Or you can decide that you want to learn – and participate – and join the entire give-and-take that involves. Just because you don’t like the “participation” aspect now doesn’t mean that it has to remain that way. You just have to get involved enough in the subject, and conversant with the issues involved, so that “participation” isn’t a bugaboo.