I don’t know how to help you get over this. There are assholes everywhere and unfortunately you met up with 4 at one time. You know you did a great job and you have to keep telling yourself that you did nothing wrong, 4 fratboys scammed your company probably not realizing that it would affect you or, really not caring that it affected you. Whatever measures you have taken in the past to stop self-harming, start doing it now. Please don’t let 4 guys that wanted to do anything to get their deposit back by having you clean for free win. You are, by far, the better person. {{{HUGS}}}