If it’s situational depression then I would seek a good therapist. A psychiatrist is great for med work- yet rarely have time to devote to therapy. Research therapies that you think would be helpful. Make a list of what you want for yourself. Put everything on it. Do you want to climb Everest? Write it down. Do you want to wake up eager to see the sunrise? Write it down. Do you want to be an astronaut who goes to Pluto? Write it down. It will help you see where you want to end up- a very important thing to know on a journey. Hopefully your pdoc has someone on call, especially during one of the statistically highest times of year for depression. Call the office and let them know how you are feeling. You pay for them- so you might as well use them! Try to remember it won’t be like this forever. It can, and will, change.