answer:I am not trained, and you really should call to speak to a counselor. They will affirm that you did the right thing by calling, and talk to you about what’s going on in your life, both in general and today in particular. And they will talk to you about the fact that things will change, as long as you are here. You are struggling now, but you won’t always be struggling. And by posting this question you show your hope for things to be better. Thanks for being part of Fluther!