answer:IMHO, you may be watching too many videos… Seriously, that’s sounds like a lot of frustration and anxiety; realize that knowledge is power; the best thing you can do to come into knowledge is to learn a variety of viewpoints and perspectives about the world and its problems. College may be a good source for this kind of information gathering. Hopefully, there isn’t a serious dogma that is at the source of that negativity, but aside from education, I believe it’s important to seek advice from experts in a variety of fields to gain clarity. Lastly, consider the possibility that there may be some underlying cause for your anxiety that may be closer to you (on a personal level) than the ‘universality’ of your concern over the human condition.