answer:I wouldn’t give too much credence to the image you have of society preferring the alpha types because: 1) Who cares? and 2) They don’t. Yes, they get more press but no one lives in the press. Our friends are people who like us, who do fun things and like adventures that we like. People don’t choose their friends because they are successes in their careers, do they? Because they’re married? No. So the simplest thing… you say you like music. Well, go make some. There are tons of opportunities that let you do that – share that – without looking at it as a career. Join a choir, check out your local community theater, find an open mic night at a local club. Dedicate some time to finding like minded people in these and other activities. You’re depressed. I understand that makes it hard to see things as potentially worthwhile. But that’s a hurdle only you can overcome. So go out and DO something. Maybe we’ll cross paths.