It's quite touching experience you have gone through in losing two pregnancies via miscarriages, I must admit. But it is not the end of the world, you just have to be strong. If not for anybody but for your little daughter. We had at one time in our lives experienced heart breaks of varying experiences. The truth is, we are not defined by what happen to us but how we manage to get ourselves together and move on from. And this takes a whole lot of courage to do especially if there's no shoulder to cry on. I once found myself in a heart broken situation too but quite different from yours. I felt the world was on my shoulder when my girl left me. And to make matter worst, it happened when I was about to start my exams. I was completely devastated. I cried like a baby for some days. It was really a heart rending experience for me God so kind, I was able to pick myself up from the heart break, and I started preparing for my exams. I took solace in not wanting to fail myself and my people, which really did help me to move on.