I actually went through 50% of what you went through, and I actually just got finished seeing a Psychologist (again…). This is a common form of Non-physical abuse (along the lines of verbal and mental abuse.), I’m not a doctor but I’ve been through the same stuff. It took me along time to deal with the ADHD and because I took too long (plus my family didn’t believe anything was wrong with me except that I was “the weird family member”) I now am Bipolar type one (The one with the VERY high suicide rate.) I can actually pinpoint when I started to only feel either REALLY depressed or REALLY energetic.I think you might benefit from talking to someone about your past, then maybe if your ready, talking to your family about it. Don’t really accuse them, because they will always defend themselves, but kinda ask questions in a way where you sound like you want to understand them. I asked my mom one time why she always wished I was never born and she said she doesn’t remember saying that. If I would have asked the question in a different way she wouldn’t have shut me out that fast. A question like “Was it hard raising me as a kid”. Sometimes the best answer you’ll get will be a deluded one, but you might have to make due with a 20% truth answer. I was also sexually assaulted as a kid for about 3 years and my mom refused to help me, because my sister was the star child. As long as nothing happened to her my mom was happy. I’m glad to hear that atleast your family got you on ritalin, because now I have 0 math skills because all I did in math was draw, daydream, and act up.