answer:I am so sorry that you are struggling. When one wants to die, one is usually clinically depressed, which means that your thinking about life and your situation is not right. It sounds from what you have said like you spend a lot of time comparing yourself to others. Try not to do that. First of all, you need to care about yourself more. You need to love yourself. Secondly. you really can’t compare yourself honestly to others, because you have no way of knowing everything that is going on in their lives. Many of them may appear together and successful, but, in reality, they are struggling mightily. Therapy can help you. It is not a quick fix, but it can help. I urge you to take that first all-important step and talk to a professional. You also might benefit from medication for depression. Please reach out to someone in real life and get the help you need and deserve. I, for one, care about you and what happens to you. Please keep me updated.