I’m not sure if this will help at all, but… Find a good class on self-protection/defense? As a large male who had positive experiences fighting kids who were aggressive from a young age, I’ve been blessed/privileged but still consider self-defense all the time and take comfort in it. I.e. I sleep knowing I will be wakened by break-ins and where the phones, improvised weapons, doors, exits and hiding places are. I’d make sure my door was locked/barred, that I had a phone and weapon handy, that friends knew what had happened, think about what a breakin or attack could look like, what would happen and what you could do to detect and react to it effectively (summoning help by voice & phone, getting away) and perhaps get someone (and/or a big dog) to keep me company for a while when going about.