You need to find another doctor. There’s nothing that any of us on the Internet can do for you, only medicine and advice given by a legal physician can help to heal you. You should be highly skeptical of all medical information given on the Internet, while some of it is good, a lot of it is not or is interpreted wrongly. I’m surprised the nurses were not treating you well, helping people heal is their job, and especially with issues like dispensing medicine on a schedule, not doing their job can lead to death. As much as you’d rather not go back, it really is the best option here. In my mind it is the only option.