Life just goes like that sometimes. Your best bet is to get some help, find someone to talk to, because it is obvious you are hurting and you need someone to turn to before you turn to something even worse. Never be afraid to ask for help, none of us is as strong as we think we are. I was having a life like that, and I needed help. I went to a doctor, got some medication and I feel like I can face the world again. We are never alone as long as we have someone willing to share the rough spots of life with, and there are a lot of people here that know exactly what you are talking about.