answer:Not abandoned, but, alone, yes. I worry about losing my family. Edited to add. Yep, this is me right here: “Being close to someone and then them leaving you, whether dying, or choosing other friends or activities like drugs and alcohol over you, hurts, but I’m not really afraid of it. It’s just affected how close I allow myself to get to people and how long it may take me to trust someone.” Also, having been sexually abused, I have a difficult time trusting others and letting them in. Ah, what I am discovering through therapy.