I can’t think of any time I nearly did something so extreme. I have wished for a bus to hit a person or two here and there, even thought a voo doo doll might fit a situation, once jokingly asked my friend to call up her Italian aunt to put a curse on someone, but never felt the urge to actually take any action to cause someone great harm or kill them. I never get to the point of violence or physical harm. But, I can understand being extremely frustrated and wanting a situation to just end. That’s when you have to get out, take a break, do something to free yourself, but hopefully have the presence of mind to know doing something extreme will not free you, only make things worse as the OP thankfully realized in her moment.