I used to make Styx's promise that sooner or later I would disappear ... I'm sure I don't belong in this world. But then I was 8 and now I'm almost 18 and I need help if I should disappear or not. My life is one big pain. I seem bad to everyone and I'm starting to think about myself. The whole world is against me, as soon as I step on it, even if I avoid everything bad, the bad will always stick to me. I don't know what to do anymore ... Please advise me. Thank you