Mundanes? I feel like a Harry Potter character. Is that like “vanillas” in the BDSM world? I can only speak for myself, but having never suffered from a serious mental illness, I have to admit that I have trouble understanding why sufferers behave as they do. Oh, don’t get me wrong, I understand completely that mental illness is a real and serious issue, and I wish only the best for those that struggle with problems from day to day. But in my heart of hearts, I find that my first response is often “Oh, for God’s sake, just suck it up and get over it!”. It shames me to feel that response, because intellectually I know that it’s so much more than a lack of willpower or fortitude. I guess I’m not as nice a person as I would like to think I am. Please utilize every resource available to you for help, and I hope you feel better soon.