answer:I belong to a forum that is related to the retirement area where I live. There have been a couple of our members to die since I’ve been a member. It is sad and they are missed. Death is always an empty, sad feeling. Maybe because it jolts a reality in us that this life is temporary. But to me, it wasn’t like a real life friend dying. Maybe because I hadn’t meet them in real life. One of our members had a highschool aged grandson die after being on life support from an accidental drug overdose. That was really emotional and sad for me. I think because it was a young person and because the forum member posted all sorts of photos of his grandson enjoying himself in our community. It was like we knew him. I know you have a lot going on in your life, @janbb. Take care of yourself physically and emotionally. I say this with cyber love and concern for you and from experience, I know how easy it is to misplace your emotions at a time like this. Death is always sad, but keep it in perspective.