answer:Many, many times. The first in my recollection was the eve of my 12th birthday, when I prayed for God to have mercy and take me in my sleep. I lost my faith when I woke up the next morning. It has been many years since I felt this way, though. Now I actually describe myself as happy, which was unimaginable to me for most of my life. If you are having a personal crisis, I do hope that you have a good support system in place, and know the agencies that can help you, As always, you know that you can reach out to the collective for insight and advice on the situations that are overwhelming you. Hang in there!