THC does not store in your fat. LSD has been known to store and come back, but THC does not. Nor is it hallucinogenic. Paranoia happens sometimes while using it, but the effects are gone by the time it leaves your system. If you were hallucinating, you were on something else, or you are suffering a psychosis. If that is the case, you must get some help. I know you say psychiatrists creep you out, but in order to help you, they have to be thorough. Look at it like this, if they want to know how somebody died, they do an autopsy, which means everything in their body gets scrutinized. If someone is suffering because their mental health is tilted a bit from normal, they must be studied so the doctor knows what to do to help them. Self medicating is a very bad idea. Stop doing that. Here is another way to look at it. If you had stomach trouble, and went to a doctor, he could not prescribe anything to help you unless you answered questions about frequency of bowel movements, and what kinds of food you eat. It would be embarrassing to answer questions like that, but you would do it so you could feel better. Me, I’m stuck taking over a dozen pills daily for an autoimmune neurological disorder. I hate swallowing pills all day every day, but if I don’t, I have seizures which contort my body in painful, unnatural positions. Many times I was on the brink of death, unable to breathe. I hate taking the pills, but I am so grateful a doctor finally figured out what was wrong, so something could be done to make my life better. I still suffer every single day and night, but at least not to the extent that I fear constantly that my every breath could be my last. I spent years suffering. Doctors couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me. I hated going to another doctor and another, and I still kept getting worse. Believe me, I know deeply how awful it is to tell your story again and again and nothing gets better. Just hang in there, and keep trying, because when you find the right doctor, it will be such a huge relief. Hang on, love. The answers are out there, somewhere.