This may sound really fucked up to many of you, but when i got into trouble as a kid, i ended up going to trial after a very lengthy investigation into my drug trafficking activities, sitting in that court room after dozens of cops had spent fuck knows how much money coming after me and now im there with the jury and a bunch of reporters and stuff, it was a very strange ego trip. Bit hard to explain too, it has been a source of a lot of embarrassment and shame throughout my adult life but in the moment when it was happening, it felt kinda badass lol