I really need advice. I have a boy I've been with for almost 2 years. But I feel that something is missing in the relationship and it has become more of a stereotype. About a month ago, I met a friend. We've been writing for a long time (my friend didn't know about it and he doesn't know, he's terribly jealous of any such thing), and eventually we met. We met and found that we understood each other. Then we met again and then he asked me if I wanted to come to him next time and watch a movie. I agreed. We were at his house the next meeting, but everything was fine. Then I slept with him once, then again, but this time it went to other nooks and crannies. I slept with him twice in one night. At first I had remorse, but on the other hand I didn't mind and I would do it again. We haven't talked much since the last meeting, I don't know what happened. I didn't do anything wrong, we were both for what happened and he came up with the idea. The worst part is that I really like him, maybe not just as a friend. But at the same time, I don't want to cheat on my boyfriend. I'm terribly confused, I keep thinking about him, I miss him, I'm sad and I don't know the way out. Today I wrote him a message if he ever had time to talk but he didn't answer me. Is it worth it to him at all when I know he doesn't care about the relationship and prefers to enjoy it? What and how should I tell him?