Question about your question; How can you be content, yet bored, lonely…mundane. And also have urges to die? To answer the anitdepressant part; Cons- They are not a happy pill. There are many, and it may take time to find the one that works for you. There are also side effects, some worse than others. Pros- You will feel better. Honestly feel like you want to live and DO something instead of wanting to do nothing or just die. I do not have personal experience, but rather from watching my mother. Hope this helps. BTW, I think from listening to you, that you should try some and see how it makes you feel before you rule them out.