I have a friend that does this with art. One day he’s an illustrator, the next he’s an abstract painter, the next he’s a videographer the next he’s a water color painter, somethings always changing with him. My guess is that he likes to define himself with his work. Perhaps you are looking for the definitive “work” to be “you.” As I’ve answered for you before, what if you take up a job and just hone in on your passions as your hobby. With the exposure people get these days your hobby could take off anytime