Hello, my name is Honza and I am 21 years old. And I live in a small town. Well, my problem died unexpectedly six months ago. We live alone with Mom now. We've been kind of dead for 5 months now, and we're waking up slowly, and we're slowly realizing it. I graduated from high school for my past with problems. My father and mom always pushed me forward when I didn't know. He wanted me to go on to school and I was accepted to university but I have to decide now. If I leave, even though I really don't have much strength now. (As if I'm not completely cool but again I have one last chance to try and I can easily return home). Now I'm unemployed with a job, it's hard here. And even before my father died, I was enrolled from the Labor Office so I had to pay my social and medical expenses from my account. Fortunately, I have some money, so if I screwed up. I just have 2 opportunities to go to university (Olomouc about 150 km) to try what it's like there and if it doesn't work, you can either find a job there or return home. But this variant tells me intuition that I would give it up when I no longer have the strength to give it up. Or stay at home and find a job here before I somehow get out of it and then take it away, it makes sense to me. The only thing I know I should leave but I need some more time. I want to make the right decision and then I do not regret it. I know I should be strong and I do my best. I think I will have a better life with college! if I could finish it, which I'm a realist, so I don't really believe it now. Thank you for the answer.