answer:Excuse my tone but WHY DO YOU INSIST ON LABELING YOURSELF AS “DISABLED”???? Are you in some kind of comfort zone where you just put up a DISABLED banner to avoid certain situations? Actually, apart from some unpleasant experiences and anxiety/depression/obsessions, I really do not think there is something tragically wrong with you! The majority of us are fighting such problems and even worse ones. Is the 20k on ask-public some kind of recognition? Will it give you prestige? I get the feeling that you ( I am not criticizing you as I have been guilty of this too ) are wasting intelligence, potential, competence and a bright mind on moping around and putting yourself down! Get your advisor to help you by making sure you get the right medication and move on. Don’t waste more precious time! I am no saint and have no right to judge you since I do not even know you, but I am sure you can get out of that rut. Please forgive the outburst but it is sad to see young lives going to waste? GET ON WITH IT!