Hello, My husband was unfaithful to me. For 2 months he maintained a relationship with another woman, who was initially only friendly. It started with a crisis in our country regarding finances and a minimum of time for each other. He kept telling me that it was nothing. But at home he was verbally very aggressive with me and refused to contact me, but that alternated with a period when he was very nice and it was good again. When I began to suspect what was happening and she told him that we would not be together, he stopped mentally and told me that he loved me and did not want to lose me and that there was nothing between them. No less did his relationship with another woman continue. The moment everything went wrong, he told me that he regretted it all and that I was the only woman he had ever loved. So we agreed to work on our relationship and start over. The problem is that even though it's been a long time, I'm sometimes unhappy and devastated and uncomfortable with my husband. I can't fully trust him (at first he said it was just "flying" and after a long time I learned that he was trying to find another partner who wouldn't blame him all the time, but that he then understood that it was wrong because he loves me and doesn't want to lose me). I enjoy it, and when I want to talk about it he's just upset that it's closed to him and the past. It destroys me terribly, the whole thing and I'm just afraid to start trusting him again, but I still love him and I don't want to throw away 15 years when we were beautiful together. I remain silent for a long time and pretend that nothing happens, but then it gets inside me and I slam. I know I'm hurting him and myself, but I don't know what to do next. Please help me find a way out of this situation. Thank you in advance for your reply K.