My self esteem is 0. I never had a problem in school, but I think I am the ugliest person alive. I am skinny, pale, have purple bags under my eyes, my hair is falling out, and I feel like a worthless piece of trash, etc. It’s basically my chemo causing all of this, but I still don’t see it that way. I am not vain though. I don’t judge people on their looks, just myself.