Mostly booze and drugs That, and finding shit that makes me happy, even if it’s fleeting and brief, it’s better than this grey bullshit I’m in 99% of the time Life is horrible, I didn’t consent to this, but it is what it is. Wallowing in it, as tempting as it is, doesn’t help. I know that because I wallow in it at least once a week. Those days where you only get out of bed to piss, shit, and eat are actually worse than the days when this world destroys me. Will still wallow again, even though I know it’s not good for me, but goddamned do I try (and fail) not to all the time