answer:I’m so sorry you are going through this and it is difficult. I think the more you fight off grieving, the bigger and tougher it will get to deal with. If it was me, I’d take a little quiet, uninterrupted time, and little time can be found, to recognize the deaths, the memories and friendship. My own personal ritual is to light a white candle, and while watching the candle, I think about that person and memories we shared, I think about the good and bad memories, I think about, but don’t dwell on their manner of death, think them looking down on me and I’ll send a spoken/thought message to them. When I feel I’m done, I blow out the candle. It’s my own ritual, but if something like that helps, do take a little time to do something for their memory. It doesn’t take much time but is worth it. You’ll feel a whole heap lot better afterwards, won’t be stressing about grieving, and will be able to focus.